Vacation = breakup?

So I mentioned that my boyfriend went out of town for week. I thought it was no big deal until I started thinking about my past. My last two boyfriends went on vacations came back and decided "we" weren't what they wanted.

Yeah, boyfriend number one went to hang out at UCLA for spring break, ran into his ex, came back and broke up with me. :-) It wasn't too bad but definitely the first time my heart was broken. Took, oh.. probably six-months to get over it.

Number two, went to visit family in Sonora Mexico in early January. When he came back, he broke up with me. That took me probably 10 months or so to get over it and felt even worse because it didn't end well and he really changed as a person and I didn't like who he became.

Now this one, went to Cancun for a week during "spring break" (at least he went with his parents and he is 25 and hopefully a little matured). I feel the tension growing in my neck. He comes back in 2 days. I guess I will get an indication of whether we are going to be over or not based on if he calls me to pick him up at the airport. :-) But then that isn't a guarantee either... maybe he is calling me to break up with me, or he is calling me to profess his undying love (yeah don't think that will happen) or maybe just that we aren't over.

Yeah I know I am probably just being paranoid and scared, but the countdown continues...

Braindead and barely breathing

I wish I had something intelligent to say. I feel like I have been very uninspiring lately. This is the main reason I have neglected my blog. I don't have anything to really talk about. I am in school and my current class has not intrigued my interest. My Boyfriend is out of town so i don't get my daily stories about the bad guys he dealt with. I realize I don't have any friends to hang out with, but mostly because I am boring and would prefer watching a movie, going to a lecture, taking a walk, going for coffee, salsa dancing, wine tasting, watching a dance/theatre performance, club dancing(only once in awhile), going to museums, going to play pool, bowling, miniature golf, going for a run, going for a drive, playing board games, or watching TV together instead of going to the same bars and drinking, drinking, and drinking. However, I guess that would be better than sitting at home watching TV and playing with the dog, right? However, I don't think either one will solve my case of being braindead and barely breathing. Any advice?