I really hate PMS. I hate how I am unpredictable and moody... more than anything I hate how stubborn I get and how much I eat. I hate that feeling of being a starving animal that must devour everything in sight... UGH! Why does this happen.
My boyfriend so got on my nerves tonight and it was about nothing in particular. We were just arguing about the phenomena of Britney Spears... well I can't stand it... it is the same story a different character and it is the worst thing when all the girl really needs is some SPACE!
Well he got on my nerves because I told him I was PMS-ing and he still kept picking on me and wanting to debate it. I am in no mood to debate, when I am PMS-ing I am RIGHT! That is all there is too it! He wouldn't leave it alone, even after I straight up asked, why are you fighting with me, I already told you why I am like this! Aghhhhhhh!!!!
Whatever! I told you it was PMS, so don't complain!
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Some interesting things I've read
Challenging the definition of marriage based on procreation... have you heard about this ballot initiative in Washington?
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/local/302553_initiative06.html
http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/localnews/2003558717_nokids06m.html
What about making it illegal to miss a parent teacher conference in Texas?
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,249139,00.html
http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/dn/education/stories/013107dntexparents.1f4b0c6.html
Kind of interesting and short...
http://www.psychologytoday.com/rss/pto-20070116-000003.html
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/local/302553_initiative06.html
http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/localnews/2003558717_nokids06m.html
What about making it illegal to miss a parent teacher conference in Texas?
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,249139,00.html
http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/dn/education/stories/013107dntexparents.1f4b0c6.html
Kind of interesting and short...
http://www.psychologytoday.com/rss/pto-20070116-000003.html
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Saturday Night, at least pretty close...
It is after midnight but I haven't gone to sleep yet so it is still Saturday. I didn't just get home from a wild night... No, I stayed home and watched TBS. I was torn between going out and staying in. I have a lot of fun when I go out. Maybe too much fun... especially if there are boys around.
It sucks to be 25 because I am getting to the age where I better snatch a man or I will lose out... but I can't snatch a man my age, because those guys who are ready to be snatched are not my age. The guys my age are just starting out, working their way to the top, enjoying the fruits of their labor from working hard in college, putting in long hours so they can retire early, and not ready to commit because they are too young.
It really isn't fair that a woman's prime to catch a Man is when she is younger... the same age when guys her age, the guys she knows, aren't intersted in the same things. So she inevitably must date someone slightly older or run the risk of hanging ou.t and having fun. She can be with Mr. Right Now who is her same age. But then in a little time they go separate way for him to find someone younger.
I am terrified. I have had so many conversations with my current boyfriend that I feel so much pressure to either find someone willing to commit to me now or reconcile myself to knowing that I will probably never get married. I am falling for all kinds of stereotypes, I know... but I can't help but think that it is going to happen to me. I see it in so many of the women with whom I work. I think they were/are nice women. They are smarter than average, hard working, self-sufficient, educated, and independant who were in long-term relationships (3+ years) that ended in their later 20s and they can't find someone now and they are so much better off physically than I am.
What really scares me is I think I am headed down the same road... because I don't trust myself. So I figure I will be almost 30 (which everyone says is still young but is getting toward the very end of a woman's physical attactiveness) and alone. I am not a supermodel by any stretch of the imagination, and I know with the natural process of aging, things are only going to get worse, unless I can afford a lot of cosmetic surgery. Yeah, I can work out, eat healthy, wear sunscreen, moisturize, and do anything and everything I can, but inevitably I am going to look older. And...lets face it, I don't have the best physical genetic genes to help me along the way.
Don't get me wrong, I think the women in my family are beautiful... but that is because I love them and I have a broader idea of beauty focusing on smiles and proof that they have and are living life. I have been told more than once that is not the case for men. Men tend to focus first and foremost on physical attractivenss because there must be sexual attraction or there is no relationship.
It is very frustrating to know this. So what's a girl to do... she can never really just enjoy a relationship anymore when she is in her mid-twenties if she knows she won't be "beautiful" forever... it puts pressure knowing you are more likely to end up alone the longer you wait and that especially hurts when you can picture and dream of your life with someone or even dream of sharing and building a life with someone. I think that is why I doubt everything that I feel and have right now... because I don't want it to be for the wrong reasons... and then because I wonder about that, I worry about if I am wasting my time... I really think I am, but I don't want to change things because I no longer know what I want in life; well, at least not realistically. I want it to be easy... I want to know where I am supposed to end up and how I will end up... but doesn't everyone?
Everyone says things turn out the way they are supposed to, it is too bad that is rarely the way you want it to be.
It sucks to be 25 because I am getting to the age where I better snatch a man or I will lose out... but I can't snatch a man my age, because those guys who are ready to be snatched are not my age. The guys my age are just starting out, working their way to the top, enjoying the fruits of their labor from working hard in college, putting in long hours so they can retire early, and not ready to commit because they are too young.
It really isn't fair that a woman's prime to catch a Man is when she is younger... the same age when guys her age, the guys she knows, aren't intersted in the same things. So she inevitably must date someone slightly older or run the risk of hanging ou.t and having fun. She can be with Mr. Right Now who is her same age. But then in a little time they go separate way for him to find someone younger.
I am terrified. I have had so many conversations with my current boyfriend that I feel so much pressure to either find someone willing to commit to me now or reconcile myself to knowing that I will probably never get married. I am falling for all kinds of stereotypes, I know... but I can't help but think that it is going to happen to me. I see it in so many of the women with whom I work. I think they were/are nice women. They are smarter than average, hard working, self-sufficient, educated, and independant who were in long-term relationships (3+ years) that ended in their later 20s and they can't find someone now and they are so much better off physically than I am.
What really scares me is I think I am headed down the same road... because I don't trust myself. So I figure I will be almost 30 (which everyone says is still young but is getting toward the very end of a woman's physical attactiveness) and alone. I am not a supermodel by any stretch of the imagination, and I know with the natural process of aging, things are only going to get worse, unless I can afford a lot of cosmetic surgery. Yeah, I can work out, eat healthy, wear sunscreen, moisturize, and do anything and everything I can, but inevitably I am going to look older. And...lets face it, I don't have the best physical genetic genes to help me along the way.
Don't get me wrong, I think the women in my family are beautiful... but that is because I love them and I have a broader idea of beauty focusing on smiles and proof that they have and are living life. I have been told more than once that is not the case for men. Men tend to focus first and foremost on physical attractivenss because there must be sexual attraction or there is no relationship.
It is very frustrating to know this. So what's a girl to do... she can never really just enjoy a relationship anymore when she is in her mid-twenties if she knows she won't be "beautiful" forever... it puts pressure knowing you are more likely to end up alone the longer you wait and that especially hurts when you can picture and dream of your life with someone or even dream of sharing and building a life with someone. I think that is why I doubt everything that I feel and have right now... because I don't want it to be for the wrong reasons... and then because I wonder about that, I worry about if I am wasting my time... I really think I am, but I don't want to change things because I no longer know what I want in life; well, at least not realistically. I want it to be easy... I want to know where I am supposed to end up and how I will end up... but doesn't everyone?
Everyone says things turn out the way they are supposed to, it is too bad that is rarely the way you want it to be.
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