Do you ever wish you could just keep driving? I do, because while driving I get some of my best thinking done. However, because of our high gas prices... The thinking and driving time is kept at a minimum, maybe that is why I have not been an inspired blogger recently... But, tonight, well it was interesting. When I usually drive around town I get nothing but red lights. Tonight as I was driving through the ghettos, hoods, ritzy areas, and everywhere else I got green lights and I thought "how nice would it be if we had traffic lights in life. Green means you are going in the right direction, if you just go with the flow you get mostly greens and everything falls into place. Then I got a red light, and another, and another... and the whole driving experience got frustrating. The more frustrated I got, it seemed the more red stop lights I got, and so is life. It seems to me that when we try to control things, think about them too much, we run into stop lights. Whether these stoplights are from ourselves out of fear or anger, or they are stoplights to warn us we are going the wrong way... I don't know.
So tonight was interesting. Last night on a Thursday I had four people ask me out or at least four opportunities arose. Well, I thought it was a very successful night. Well, tonight is Friday and I am all alone here at home. It is unusual because I love to stay home.... but it feels so pointless and empty to do so...
It seems tonight, when I tried to make my own opportunity to go out, I ran into nothing but stop lights. It is a good thing, because if I had gone out tonight I would have made some dumb decisions because I am sad and hurt.
So instead I drove around... I thought a lot, mostly about nothing, but occasionally having insight into my life (or so I thought, I am sure that will all change tomorrow or in an hour when I change my mind). I guess that is why I like driving, you are always making progress as long as you keep going. You may not know exactly where you are going, but at least you are moving in some direction and you have control over it to a large extent. Life isn't so simple. Well, I guess I need to find the next green light because I am running into a lot of red... I must have gotten way off track...
