An Awkward Moment, not caused by me!

So I was annoyed by the people at the gym today. They were doing intervals on the treadmill. 10 minutes on.... three minutes off... so by the time I would have been able to stop what I was doing to jump on they were already back on the machine! And I don't know enough about gym etiquette to know if it is okay to just jump on or to ask to use the machine. So... I decided to drive to the lake to run. It was nice, a little warm, but it felt good to be outside. I only ran a mile and a half and got three phone calls in the process ( I knew I should have left my phone in the car, but I was running alone and well, it is a paranoid safety thing). Well, as I finished and was walking toward my car, I looked around and as I did this guy just froze, I took no notice of it until he kept looking at me. I think it was my ex walking with his new flavor of the month. I am still not sure it was him, and I think I actually saw fear in his eyes and he was about to turn and walk away. I paid no attention and kept walking ( I was trying to avoid something awkward). Was I wrong in my behavior? Should I have gone up to him and said hi? Man I wish there was a way to know what to do, so he would know I am over him and ready to be a mature adult about the entire situation. I don't think I did anything wrong, but the look on his face... hmm. Any comments anyone? :-/

Let's talk about sex

Okay so I have tons of questions. My entire life I have had nothing but questions about sex and only recently have I started to get answers. By and far it seems that the only way to get answers in american culture is by experimenting. Now, I am not up for experimenting in the sexual realm until it is with someone you can trust. There are so many STDs nowadays that it is a risky experiment to conduct.

Another way to learn is to do lots of reading and watching. Now the reading is fun and one of the best books out there is put out by goofy foot print called "The Guide to Getting It On!" This book has pictures, commentary, cartoons, and anecdotes. It is hilarious. I love it. I think it should be incorporated into sex education around the country.

Another great source is pornography, as long as it is tasteful. Rape scenarios, etc are not cool but there is some useful intersting stuff out there that can help girls especially become more comfortable with enjoying sex.

What I don't think there is enough of is discourse on masturbation and oral sex. There are so many misconceptions and it is't encouraged (especially in young women). However, in reality it is a really healthy alternative and safe way of not getting pregnant (if you do it right), staying free of many many STDs, and learning about yourself and what you enjoy so that when you do decide to become "more intimate" with someone you know where you need to be stimulated.

I know I have gone about this entire backwards in my life. I started out with the big enchilada (SEX) and was let down. In speaing with some friends I realize that I have rarely been satisfied and I think I don't let myself be satisfied, I always stop someone before I "lose control". why? I wish I knew. Okay I am bored, maybe I will write about this more later on but tell me what you think... or if you know of any resources to learn the "how to" of these things that would be helpful too. :-)