Tuesday, September 25, 2007
60 days
Today is the 2 month anniversary of my "disengagement"... it feels as if it has been a painful eternity. Especially the last few days. I don't know how I am going to make it through another 480+ days. I guess it will get to a point where you just stop counting. Well, I wish it was not 60 days later, I wish it was 480 days later so that I would hopefully be at a point where I had stopped hoping, be at a point where I stopped counting, where I had just stop caring about it all. But who is to say that in 480 days I will feel that way. I guess I am hoping it is more likely.
Monday, September 24, 2007
2 days in a row
I ran again today. I was much slower running two miles in 24 minutes... not good I know but hey for not running for three months, that isn't bad. :-) However, I do think that two days constitutes a streak. I am just not sure if I can do it again tomorrow thus ending the streak. Maybe I will. I have a feeling I am going to be pretty sore though. I am just happy I did it. Maybe tomorrow I will play golf... but playing golf when you are sore only ruins your game. Besides, I think I need to go to the driving range first, I haven't hit a ball all summer.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
My new goals and the weekend's events
I was excited to go for a run/jog today. It felt really good. I had a goal in mind and barely did it, but I did it. :-) I ran 1.5 miles in 15 minutes. I really want to work up to 2.0 miles in 16 minutes. That is an 8 minute mile. It has been awhile since I was able to do that. I am going to take this working out stuff seriously because the weather is getting nice enough again for me to do it. I hate gyms. I just can't stand them, the smell, the people, the atmosphere. It is just not me. I feel too incompetent at the gym.
Therefore, I created a 6 day a week workout plan for myself so that I have a ton of variety mixed in. It is taped up on the wall in my room to remind me to do something everyday. I can pick any of the routines and I am going to run after work now. I figure the best idea it to stop on the way home and run for 20 minutes.
I have another goal in mind. I really really want to lose 10 pounds. I have to buy a scale so I know how I am doing... so the goal is also to drop a pant size, at least. My big thing is the tummy. I know my butt is always going to be huge and my thighs are also a lost cause, but I want to keep my tummy (belly as my ex-fiance used to call it) as tiny as possible, especially now that I have a drinking partner again. :-)
It was a fun weekend, even if there is reality to return to on Monday and things that still need to be addressed. I am still uncertain if I am going to stay or go, but I am making sure my options are open and that I am actively looking all the time. I start faculty training this week so that will also slow things down and well, there is another test I may take which will require some time.
Staring with a co-worker happy hour was fun. The girls are funny and I was super excited that my new friend came along too. Greasy bar food is always the start to a terrific weekend. :-)
It is funny, this weekend one of the guys I talked to was a member of the "secret service" he showed me pictures of the president on the South Lawn and he was there too for some event. I'm like okay... this is weird, too bad for him I wasn't impressed. I don't trust men in uniform anymore if they are outside of their job duties. They then are just guys who will do or say anything to confuse you and lead a girl astray.
It was a good weekend. The hard part is, I know that the weekends that have been good, always included seeing my ex-fiance. We went to see a movie on Friday. So I don't know if knowing he is okay, alive, and just still there is what makes my life complete and okay to enjoy. Well, time will tell ,right?
Therefore, I created a 6 day a week workout plan for myself so that I have a ton of variety mixed in. It is taped up on the wall in my room to remind me to do something everyday. I can pick any of the routines and I am going to run after work now. I figure the best idea it to stop on the way home and run for 20 minutes.
I have another goal in mind. I really really want to lose 10 pounds. I have to buy a scale so I know how I am doing... so the goal is also to drop a pant size, at least. My big thing is the tummy. I know my butt is always going to be huge and my thighs are also a lost cause, but I want to keep my tummy (belly as my ex-fiance used to call it) as tiny as possible, especially now that I have a drinking partner again. :-)
It was a fun weekend, even if there is reality to return to on Monday and things that still need to be addressed. I am still uncertain if I am going to stay or go, but I am making sure my options are open and that I am actively looking all the time. I start faculty training this week so that will also slow things down and well, there is another test I may take which will require some time.
Staring with a co-worker happy hour was fun. The girls are funny and I was super excited that my new friend came along too. Greasy bar food is always the start to a terrific weekend. :-)
It is funny, this weekend one of the guys I talked to was a member of the "secret service" he showed me pictures of the president on the South Lawn and he was there too for some event. I'm like okay... this is weird, too bad for him I wasn't impressed. I don't trust men in uniform anymore if they are outside of their job duties. They then are just guys who will do or say anything to confuse you and lead a girl astray.
It was a good weekend. The hard part is, I know that the weekends that have been good, always included seeing my ex-fiance. We went to see a movie on Friday. So I don't know if knowing he is okay, alive, and just still there is what makes my life complete and okay to enjoy. Well, time will tell ,right?
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