I hate it when I am right...

So remember my post from a couple weeks ago about being afraid of what would happen when my boyfriend came back. Well, I was right. Yeah it was prolonged and avoided for a couple of weeks, but that is because I had to leave for a funeral and he avoided me using work as an excuse. But last night the truth came out... he had in fact decided or realized over his vacation that we "want different things, at least at this time."

All I can say, is "this sucks."

Alright God, I give up! You win! Forget the life I want, I will lead the life you choose.

It's a good thing summer is almost here!

My song for the summer!

Artist/Band: Andrews Jessica
Lyrics for Song: Summer Girl
Lyrics for Album: Other Songs

I drive an Army Jeep
My bumper sticker reads
'Drink 'til he's cute'
That's what I'm gonna do
Ain't got no serious thing
Don't wear a diamond ring
I got a new tattoo
I think you'll like the view
And in my mind
The sun shines
All the time

Chorus:
('Cause) I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
When I let my hair down
(That's when the party starts)
(The party never stops)
Who needs a boyfriend
I got my girl friends
When we get together
The summer never ends
Yeah yeah, oh oh oh
(I'm just a summer girl)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

Tanks tops and cutoff jeans
Bikinis and belly rings
We'll make that scene
When the DJ plays 'Dancin' Queen'
Fellas, lay your money down
We'll let'ya buy a round
Don't push your luck
Don't get more than your hopes up
In my world
Day or night
Rain or shine

Chorus:
('Cause) I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
When I let my hair down
(That's when the party starts)
(The party never stops)
Who needs a boyfriend
I got my girl friends
When we get together
The summer never ends
Yeah yeah, oh oh oh
(I'm just a summer girl)(Oh, oh, oh, oh)(Oh, oh, oh, oh)


Everybody needs a little bit of sunshine
Everybody needs time to unwind
Everybody's got to have a good time
(I'm just a summer girl)
Everybody get up on your feet
Everybody got to shake your body
Everybody got a right to be free
(I'm just a summer girl)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(I'm just a summer girl)

It's all okay...

Worried, worried, worried... that is how I feel most of the time. I wonder if it is because I am a girl, because of the way I was raised, or because of me. Well, as you probably know I was a little paranoid that my boyfriend was going to dump me after his week long vacation... well he didn't. It was a great relief! In fact he emailed me twice from Cancun saying he loved me. He also called me. So all is well. I guess some of the lessons we learn aren't' guarantees. I am glad he was able to show me that things aren't always what you expect. So we are still together and having fun.