Some advice...

Guys if you know it isn't going to last forever and you don't plan on it lasting forever,

Don't ask a girl to slow dance because each time she hears that song she will forever think of you.

Don't give her presents that will be around after you are gone.

Don't take her somewhere she always wanted to go.

Don't sit on the beach under a full moon.

Don't make her do things she doesn't want to, because if she does, she does them for you, giving/losing a part of her individuality because you are more important to her.

Don't go home and meet her family, because she will have nowhere to escape without thinking of you.

What luck or lack there of....

Okay I give up. All my friends tell me that most if not all guys are interested in sex. 99% of them wouldn't mind a hook-up. 9 out of 10 would go for having just a sexual relationship. I was told if you call someone to hang out at like 1am they would get the hint... Then tell me why I find the 1% that doesn't want to just have sex or will even make a move to just have some fun!!!! I don't get it. I have one guy tell me he can't see me as long term when he was perfect for a relationship.... and then these guys I want to use for sex only want to date and hang out before moving to that level.... I don't get it!!!! Guys are so f-ing confusing. They only want what they can't have!!!! If you want them they don't want you... If you want sex they want a relationship... Man... I am this close to being a Lesbian... :-p

Quickfix for a broken heart: determination to find my own life

There is no quickfix for a broken heart. I thought by going home I could put a big bandaid across my shattered heart and piece it back together but it didn't really help, instead it made me realize that I don't even have a place to go home to because I don't know what I want to do. Instead of finding peace I faced more questions. I know my family is trying to help and they want to heal my wounds, but the joking and laughing only puts salt on the still fresh cuts. I am okay now. I need to move forward. I can handle living my life alone, but I need to chose it and feel secure and free in what I choose. No more slacking.... If I don't like where I am I need to stop complaining and do something about it. So with a shattered heart, now for more than just some stupid boy... I realize I need to go on by myself and figure out how to get what I want. I give myself two years... In two years I want to be a teacher in a high school, have a house, an SUV, Kayak, Lab, and snowboard.... Is that a lot to ask for?